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 07:12 | 23/Aug/2008 |
| Observations | |
| There are few things that I noticed when I spoke to S. One which caught my attention ..and I don't know how, earlier I had completely missed it. Infact there are moments when I tihnk earlier I must have been completely blind.It happened when one day I was upset. S spoke to me that day too. He realized I was upset. Asked me once but when I said noth...
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| 10:18 | 20/Aug/2008 |
| Afterwards.... | |
| After 10 days of intense communication with my friend S I reached two conclusions. One ,I didn't trust him ,not completely. There was a nagging feeling that something was not right. I couldn't shake it away. Even after he told me everything. Even after he vented out everything he felt. Even after he called me a close firend. Even knowing that I had...
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| 21:09 | 8/Aug/2008 |
| freedom | |
| Funny how life turns out to be. Or the anticlimaxes.My friend S. Two years I obsessed over our friendship. What went wrong with it. How I could set it right.Day in and day night i missed talking to him. And finally when things came to a head one day I wrote to him and he wrote back and we easily resumed from where we had stopped. Apart from the sli...
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| 07:50 | 31/Jul/2008 |
| He's back! | |
| I gave in to my urge and contacted my friend. To my greatest delight and happiness he contacted me right back and not only did he ocntact me he spent the next three days talking to me. Everyday I talk to him , everyday he buzzes me . We have a little bit of reserve now but that might wash away with time. It took just one mail ...just one small mai...
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| 04:04 | 24/Jul/2008 |
| Friend...I miss you | |
| I thought of my friend today. Visited his homepage. I miss him. Miss talking to him. Miss sharing jokes and laughter with him. I wonder if fate will have us meet again. More than anything I wonder if he misses me too. Life is so strange it brings you to strange situations and makes you meet so many different kinds of people. I wonder how long he wi...
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| 03:07 | 21/Jul/2008 |
| Knowing my inner self | |
| My friend got orphaned. And since then i have been morbidly depressed. I have even started feeling violent for some unknown reason. I have no idea what kind anger is it that propels me but deep inside i feel a very strange kind of restlessness , an anger and a desire to do something really violent.I also have got into this mode when I am bothered ...
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| 00:35 | 13/Jul/2008 |
| A thought | |
| My biggest weakness has always been my negativity and it'll also be the reason for my downfall one day. I complain about everyone, i crib about everyone. I can't seem to understand why is it that I find fault with everything and everybody. I tihnk i talk too much.I talk and talk and talk to cover up spaces most of the time i go off track, i dont ev...
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| 22:26 | 27/Jun/2008 |
| Happy :) | |
| I feel much better after blogging now. It was like some of the pain just wiped itself off. I looked into the mirror yesterday and suddenly I liked myself a lot more. I kept the world aside and then decided to pamper myself. My idea of pampering myself is just being myself. Surprising? Yeah well, most of the time there is so much pressure from all q...
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| 10:59 | 25/Jun/2008 |
| Dreams | |
| I have always run away from relationships. I have always been running scared of commitments. I know why. I have a problem beleiving that people will accept me for the person I am . And so far noone has disappointed my belief. I don't blame anyone, but there are times especially now when I feel an overwhelming need sometimes to have someone who care...
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| 05:43 | 25/Jun/2008 |
| Priorities and Demons | |
| Why do we get attached to people so soon? why do we feel the continuousneed for communication and the need to attach ourselves to someoneelse? Aren't we secure in our own individuality? Eventually it isalways each to his own. Living away from home the one tihng that I havenkown is that i call home most often when I feel an overwhelmingemptiness in ...
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